I know that you're out there
not thinking of me
a reckless soul
wrapped up in self
never reflecting on the decision
of your influence
on those around you
and those you can't see
but I know the real you
and the lies you openly display
do you really want to be like that
no one ever knowing who you are
I know you feel it too
even though you try to forget
but the connection is still there
all is not lost
I can feel you returning to me
not yet but...soon
The taste upon my tongue
bitter and intoxicating
my cool white breasts rising
to meet your muscled flesh
laid stripped and raw
waiting for your descent
the blissful pleasure
of your moist tongue within me
as I writhe in pleasure
images play within my mind
like an old videotape
crackled and splintered
my back arches
as I feel you go deeper
guiding myself
deeper onto you
fill me up with your kisses
smother me
do what you need to do
to make the most of me
I want to be with you
would do anything to be with you
give up everything to be with you
you're taking over me
I want to lie next to you
give up my life just to look at you
turn myself inside out, so I'm with you
cause now you're invading me
want to breathe the air with you
reinvent myself, to keep attracting you
learn new skills, to align with you
cause you're bleeding into me
I lie awake thinking of you
will do anything to find you
just to say I'm in love with you
cause you're seeping into me
we see you out there
the beautiful people
decked out in jewellery
and the designer's wares
we see you with others like you
all looking the same
with all your fakeness
what IS it that you do?
we see you with all your things
book deals, interviews bringing in the dough
people paying just to use your face
prostituting youself for a little shopping
we see you with someone new on your arm
every other week someone new to escort you
to this premiere or other photo op
and you think that in that, there lies no harm
we see you courting the press
stood with flashing light bulbs
with your skinny legs and waist
and so unnatural breasts
do you think you're helping at all?
media forcing us to be like you
changing our desire to become inhuman too
just setting us up for one big fall
Connected?
alone, touching my skin
thinking of you
are you feeling the same
are we connected some way?
the haunting melodies
playing out in front of us
I reach my hand out to you
do you feel it too?
Missing
my bed calls
but I lie awake
waiting for you
to return once more
missing
worried about what you've seen
said and done
return to me
to speak those words
do you remember the good times
like the night we first kissed
stood in the darkness no sense of time
ensuring the opportunity wouldn't be missed
2 kids not knowing what was going on
spurred on by lust and later love
in that parking lot a seed was sown
our bodies fitting like a glove
i never felt that way any more
the rush of raw emotion and the thrill
the way your love lifted me from the floor
and in my heart the love continued to fill
the movies were completely right
it really could be this way
fireworks illuminating the sky at night
and keeping all my fears at bay
they all told us it was not to be
we didn't listen, spurred on by youth
then soon i began to see
that loneliness was going to be the root
of my ever increasing distraction
and ever longing despair
making my love open for retraction
a break with no hope of repair
dark gloom washing over me
sinking into my heart
clouds on the horizon
not looking forward
can't explain the way I feel
the anger locked up inside
I know I need to scream
but can't find my voice
so many things I need explained
but explanations give no reasons
hurt trapped in a black chasm
buried inside to keep the peace
if only I could escape
these feelings taking hold of me
but years of jaded disdain
leave me scarred and twisted
unable to see my way out
lapsing into embittered rage
at you and the world I inhabit
want to evade this destination
someone hear my screams
